But whether there's some grand design really matters little to me.

But whether there's some grand design really matters little to me. My only
hope was this: to see what might be, to believe that it should be, and then to
do all I could to bring it to pass, whatever the cost. When a life spins out
as joyfully as mine has done, then the price, once paid so painfully, is now
recalled in gladness. I have received full value. Here among the shepherds, my
cup is filled with the water of life; it overflows.
-- Orson Scott Card, "Treason"